The weigh in today was 215. Not quite the results I desired in october, but much better than I anticipated after being gone for so long. I guess that’s the reality. On this journey there will be setbacks, but its up to me to keep pushing forward. To keep on going. Its hard to not just throw in the towel. Its hard to want something so bad but never having known what it was like to attain it. Is 130×30 realistic? Is it what I really want or need? Would I be satisfied at 150 or 140? So many questions but one thing I know is that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and that its not by my own might or power, but its by His spirit.